There are a few downsides to being a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kind of girl--the possibility of failure, the learning along the way, the potential for loss. My ability to jump into something that I have little to no experience or training is a curious part of my past. There has always been the potential for a misstep, but those have rarely happened.
Perhaps it is a mental disfunction: that everything looks better in theory.
There are upsides of my disfunction. I don't regret much about my life path. I have lived more than most women I personally know. Sure, there are the great adventurers we read about, but there aren't many of my acquaintances or family that have done so many things. The listing of jobs in various industries is quite an interesting adventure in itself: hostess, technical writer, public relations person, waitress, nanny, stablehand, marketing coordinator, administrative assistant, personal trainer, valet, sales engineer, exercise instructor, tutor, professor..... those are just to name a few. There was a time in my life that I felt it was necessary to take every job opportunity I was ever offered. Just recently, I finally learned how to say to myself, "Yes, I COULD do that, but I'm not going to do it. It's not what makes me happy/fulfilled/successful/whole."
Though it may seem like one's natural response, in the past it was never mine. I think I'm a step closer to listening to my heart.
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